Its been years since I have written something on here, over 10 years now. i'm a full adult and somehow I realize while reading my work from the past not much has changed, I'm still that sad alone girl from high school. The one who has always been such a sadness but now my reasons for this feeling are so much more different. Two steps forward , One step Back.

 Sometimes it's hard being me

 I'm not saying i'm better

 or 

Special compared to everyone

All i'm really trying to say is...its hard living the life I live.

Letting go

 

Letting go
  I had to learn to let go. Let go of all the anger I had in my heart. I had to let go of the emotions that kept me sad and bitter. It was so difficult...probably the hardest thing I had to do. I forgave all the those who hurt me and taught myself to forget. I had to let go of the memories that didn't allow me to be happy, for the better of me. There was no point in being bitter for things I had no control over. I had to move on from all that was holding me back. Forgetting, forgiving and overall just letting go. I had to do this to be able to move forward in my life and be happy.

ME

  

"ME"

       I know I am not like other girls

 I don't think like others girls

I surely don't act like other girls 

I am "Me"

It's hard to fully understand exactly what I mean because no one will ever fully understand me

To truly understand what I speak of

you have to truly know me for me

Get to know me

then maybe

 You'll see what I mean

 Till then

 My Darlings

 you'll question what I just spoke of

Am I really any different than the rest? 

CATS

                                         

Cats

        My love for these felines is indescribable. Their endless affection towards one is lovely and comforting. Their movements and characteristics are so unique. They're like a  therapy for me, they keep me relaxed. They're what I call the best pet for anxious or stressed people. They're not a hassle to care for, they don't need as much attention as dogs. You don't need to walk them or play with them, they enjoy being on their own. They won't constantly bug you, they'll mind their own business. They can tell when you'r in the mood for their affection and when to leave you alone. Don't make so much commotion like dogs they won't bark at every moving object and they wont chew up your things. Won't have to worry about picking up after them. The cats purring vibrations sooth the me. They just lay around, only want your food and affection. Aren't cats just the dandiest? My love for these lovely felines truly is indescribable. Their purr-fect in my opinion, every little thing about them.